“I’ve had an eating disorder for a long time, and I know I don’t like the way I’m living, but honestly, I’m terrified of how painful it would be to actually try some kind of recovery program. Even though my disorder is painful, at least I know how to manage that pain. But I don’t know if I can handle the pain of getting into a recovery program and digging into all the deep wounds that I’m sure are down there somewhere in my soul. Is it really worth it? How can I find the courage to try this?”
