“I was abused when I was younger, both by my father and by my uncle. The shame that these events caused still lives in me today, and has led to a lot of destructive behaviors, including an eating disorder, and cutting. Over the years, I’ve managed to become numb to things – kind of a defense mechanism I guess against anyone who might want to hurt me again. Now I’m at the point where I just don’t feel anything. Not hope – not love – not fear – not joy. I just feel totally empty. I know I’ve done really bad things – things that God is probably not happy about, but do you think He still wants to help me? And how can I even feel him when I seem to have successfully turned off all of my feelings for so long?”
